SO FANTASTIC NEWS THAT I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT!!!! AHHH!! I received my letter from the Nursing faculty, and I've been ACCEPTED!!! So pumped, seriously! I feel like it would have been nice if I had made this decision before I completed my first year, but I have to say that the first year doesn't feel wasted. I struggled through it with my Mom passing and moving to a new city and everything, and it was good to have a year that doesn't really mean anything to get a hold of my bearings. And I'm ready for next year, I think. Its gonna be GREAT! And my best friend also transferred into Nursing this year, even though he attends a different university 4 hours away. But we'll finish together and suffer through it together. Big shoutout to him on his birthday, by the way, haha.
So stuff at home is pretty rough. My dad is sick all the time and he lost his job. We're in pretty rough shape financially, but I have faith that God will see us through it. It will all work out in the end, its just tough going through this everyday and seeing people around me who really don't understand. But again, thus is life. I watched this video today called the Graduation Song (I'll link it at the end of this post) that was just so flippin' true. It talks about how you really know nothing of life until you graduate high school. Then you see how much it really sucks. And it does, but I think its important to try and see how amazing it can be sometimes. And I say that, but making it happen is different.
I have this friend that I love to death, she is absolutely amazing. And what I'm about to say isn't meant to be against her at all, so if at any point it sounds like that, just remember this sentence. She just turned 21 and she just seems so happy in her life. She posts pictures on her Facebook that just show all these things she's doing in her life. She's crafty, she's got 2 jobs, going to school, waiting on her boyfriend to return off his mission, and she's just always smiling. She goes out and does things. Her life is happy. And sometimes I just look at her thinking "why can't I be like that? What am I doing wrong in my life?" And sometimes I just wonder if things weren't so hard at home, I could create something like that. I'm condemning my life at home or anything because I love my family so much. Sometimes I just my circumstances were different. That things were easier in different aspects of my life. Because I have this huge weight on my shoulder that drags me down and keeps me from doing this stuff. But anyway!! Its not a big deal. I still have time to be amazing, haha!